Sunday, August 16, 2009

In Denial

Tomorrow is Jordan Ann's first day of preschool. I've packed her little backpack, filled with her fresh school supplies. I have her dress hanging in her room, next to her bloomers, pink sandals and pink bow. Before bed, I answered her 378 questions about what preschool would be like, who she would play with, what she would color and a practice round of the Pledge of Allegience (so she would remember how it goes "just in case they said it together".) But in the quiet of my house, I can't help but think that tomorrow is not happening. I am in complete and utter denial. Yes, I want her to go to school, learn, play, experience new things. But I also want her right next to me, under my wing as long as possible.


So tonight when I go in to check on her one last time, I just might get into the bed next to her, and think back on the days when it was just me and her all day everyday. I can remember playing face-to-face on the floor for tummy time, swaddling her every naptime and bedtime, watching her learning to play by herself in the pack and play, and finally when she was 16 1/2 months watching her decide it was time to finally take some steps. My, how far we've come in four short years. And now, preschool. Wow.


Don't blink. It's all happening way, way too fast.

5 comments:

Pat Allen said...

Ok I am just blubbering. Talk about too fast...you were just in 4 year kindergarten. Please save me a chocolate chip cookie!

odomfamilyfun said...

i'm in denial too...

Sara said...

How sweet! I can definitely relate! I just wish I could hold tight to every precious moment.

Karen L. said...

Hi Carly! I'm a bad blogger! :) I attempted to start AND KEEP UP a blog but I'm not very good at it. Anyway, I just saw that you left a comment on a post of mine back in JUNE! I was actually surprised that anyone read it (I haven't told my friends I have a blog!)
I read your post about your little one starting preschool. Oh I remember the day(s)! You are right it goes by way too fast! But the days ahead are even better!!! It is amazing to see God grow the children He has blessed us with. "Pour out your heart like water before the face of the Lord; lift up your hands towards Him for the life of your chilren." Lam 2:19
Get in shape now; be on your knees because, before long, you'll be on your face for your kids.

Erica said...

Oh my, did this post ever resonate with me! Our preschool doesn't start for 2 more weeks...and I already am hugging them tighter. (I only signed them up for 2x week instead of the typical 3 at Ry's age because I can't imagine giving him up so long!)

Homeschooling is all of a sudden starting so so appealing. =)